Whew!

I’ve been missing…for good(ish) reason. The past month has been quite hectic. I had to move, was working on a big project at work and then right after all that wrapped up, had to organise, amidst all the chaos and move clutter, to go on vacation. Everything culminated all at the same time essentially and I really had no room for error and had to focus to get things done correctly. Imagine I actually said “if I had my way, I wouldn’t go on this cruise right now…I just need a 3 months to organise myself”. I pulled off everything without a hitch but my writing suffered and it had to take a back seat for the hour.

I’m going to ease back in and just talk a lil bit bout vacationing – no details or stories just yet. I wish I can go on vacation willynilly (and maybe I can but I’m not that brave). I always think about so many things, namely:
*who, if anyone, am I going with (as independent as I can be, I am always mindful of everyone else around me – I don’t want to cramp their style)
*is the terrain scooter friendly and will I be able to move around?
*what about where I’m staying, will I be able to get in and out of the bed?
*Does the place have rooms with roll in showers? the list goes on.
The struggle is real and sometimes it’s just easier to go home (where I know I’ll be good) or not go to new places -just depends.

so for the past few years ASal has been talking about going on the Ubersoca Cruise and as much as it sounded like it would be fun, I was sceptical. You see, I’d never been on a cruise before and yes, I hear that they cater to the handicapped etc, I just didn’t know for sure. Depending on the situation too, I prefer to be told “yes it’s Stacey friendly” from someone who knows specifically what I’m dealing with and whom I can trust…that’s probably very limiting but it is what it is – maybe one day I’ll let that go, but it eh today. Well she got the opportunity to go last year and when she came back she said “easy peasy for u…won’t be a problem at all!” I signed up for 2019 without hesitation.

I am so very happy that I went; what a time we had! Of course two days before we left, I started worrying about whether we’d specifically asked for a roll in room – did we even need to on a ship? I couldn’t remember…cuz we talked to the organisers in march or something so and here we are in November. Was I making a mistake? Shit…nothing I could do about it at that late stage, just have to go and deal with whatever the universe had in store for me. Well the universe had a bess time lined up and it was a great 5 days. Will I cruise again? Yes without a doubt although after the USC2019, all other cruises may pale in comparison and I may find them quite boring LOL! like i said, no stories just yet but know that they are coming.

will I ever throw caution to the wind and just go? Doubtful. I like to know what situation I’m going into and need to have some understanding that maybe I’ll be able to handle whatever is thrown my way while keeping in mind that with my wretched disease, anything can happen at anytime. Anyhoo, ah gone so till next week…allyuh hold it dong.

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