Cane…Food for Thought

So when i went for my infusion, 1 of the nurses saw me and asked me where was my cane.  She seemed to remember me coming in with a cane before.  When i told her that I didn’t use one, she said that maybe i should look into it because it would help me keep my balance.  what’s “funny” is that i’d written about my thoughts of using one the day before and then i go in and she’s telling me that it will help me.  I’m still not convinced – i’m still a little afraid.  I’m thinking it’s one more thing that I’ll have to “keep track of” when i’m walking and that could end in disaster.  maybe it’s also my pride?  maybe it’s that i’m scared because again – the progression – canes might lead to other walking aides which could eventually lead to a permanent chair.  Of course there’s always the bright side…i could get a “cool” cane; maybe different colours and styles so that i have options depending on where i’m going…

i swear it’s getting harder and harder to keep my positive attitude about this disease. 

The New Drug

Oye!

Not sure if i have figured out the last pill as yet. 

  • Sometimes it makes me sleepy (altho not as much as the first time) other times – nothing
  • the past 2 days, it’s been making me dizzy (only for a few minutes), before yesterday – nothing
  • Once or twice, it made me feel kinda sick (again only for a few minutes) – but that’s only been once or twice


Sheeeiit – i just don’t know.  As usual, is it helping?  who the *^*!! knows.  i thought it was at first; now? not so much.  i was supposed to take 1/2 a tablet for a week (started 2 weeks ago) and then increase to a whole one.  Needless to say i’m still taking 1/2 because I’m a little afraid of what an entire 1 would do..more to come i suppose…

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well wouldn’t u know it…

Friday was my infusion (time really does fly) and guess how many times i got stuck?  ONE!!!!  she did it in 1 go…who woulda THUNK it!  I certainly didn’t think it was possible after all my experiences so far.  AND, i think i’ve also discovered the most comfortable position too.  I think i’ve mentioned before, i would have never thought in a million years that i would entertain the top of my wrist (that nice bony part) – but there is the most comfortable – i can bend, move my hand freely without any issues.  I sit there for about 2 – 2.5 hrs easily so it’s good to be able to move my arm comfortably.
Still don’t know what, if anything, these needle pricks are doing anything for me – but hey, i guess i’ll keep enduring them for now.

Today’s Post Brought To U By The Number “1”

well wouldn’t u know it…

Friday was my infusion (time really does fly) and guess how many times i got stuck?  ONE!!!!  she did it in 1 go…who woulda THUNK it!  I certainly didn’t think it was possible after all my experiences so far.  AND, i think i’ve also discovered the most comfortable position too.  I think i’ve mentioned before, i would have never thought in a million years that i would entertain the top of my wrist (that nice bony part) – but there is the most comfortable – i can bend, move my hand freely without any issues.  I sit there for about 2 – 2.5 hrs easily so it’s good to be able to move my arm comfortably.
Still don’t know what, if anything, these needle pricks are doing anything for me – but hey, i guess i’ll keep enduring them for now.

Angst

I am beginning to believe that I experience some anxiety when i need to be out and about sometimes.  I went out Friday nite and at times i was unbelievably unsteady; had to hold on to people and everything but as soon as I got home – no problems.  it’s a pain in my ass….but…

On the flip side tho, i was out and about Saturday by myself and didn’t have any problems really.  sometimes, i wonder if a cane will help me any, but then i have a vision of me and the cane catspraddling (falling in an unladylike manner) down the sidewalk; something that i’d rather not have to ever live thru *gasp*! 

I really don’t think that a cane will help me any because i’ll just be unsteady with it too, so for now, i will just continue to hold on to somebody else when i can and walk ever so slowly/take my time so as to not keel over when i can’t.

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