It’s been a little over a year. I stopped writing because my disability was getting worse and I no longer enjoyed(?)/looked forward to(?)/wanted(?) to write about things going in a downward spiral. I think I’m at a point where I’m dealing with the worsened state and I’m okay with it (at the end of the day, I have no choice right?) and I actually want to come back – been thinking about it for the past few days. So…how to catch up…plenty to talk about.
First things first I suppose, walking with my beloved canes became more and more treacherous. Before I get into that I must say that I have no additional/new MS symptoms – my complaint has always been the steady decline of my walking (I’ll get into details later) and it still is. Also, my left hand followed suit and curls up a lot (read “anytime I friggin need to use it”) and so that just got progressively worse over time. My canes…I had to overcome a psychological hurdle and come to terms with the fact that I need a walker. I doh care what u call me, but walking with a walker sucks…I do it…and I do it with style 😉 but at the end of the day, it’s a walker. I made the Soca Scooter my own and I still do (although these days the poor thing is making noises I never heard before) but there’s no way to “jazz up” a walker. I’ll admit though, I didn’t get the medical Grey one that u see people putting the tennis balls under, I got a 2wheel one that is black and grey with blue handles but guess what? Yup, it’s still a walker.
I NEED the walker…I cyah be schupid (it’s just how we pronounce stupid), so I use it. I think it’s just a chounx wider than those other ones but it works for me. I do use Soca Scooter more now tho than when I walked with canes – sometimes walking doesn’t make sense. The other day I bought a tray for the walker so that if I’m carrying food (hell anything in my hands) I don’t have to use the scooter in here. There’s good news too…I didn’t have any bad falls before switching from the canes. So, I had to “hang up” my canes. These days they just liming in a corner of my living room. sigh! I do miss them
Alright…not going to give u everything in my first post so I gone so.
P. S…Blogger has made some changes making me ketch meh ass to do this so bear with me as i get back into the flow of things.