I’ve said before that i really believe that my MS is temperamental. I swear! If I’m at home alone or around people i’m comfortable with – no problems (for the most part)…as soon as i’m out and about, around strangers – all hell breaks loose! I stiffen up, i’m all shaky, unstable…ayeyayaye! shit is never nice and simple…
Monday nite, I went to dinner…wobbled into the restaurant and as always, I feel like i have to explain when I’m following the host to a table (esp if I’m by myself) becuz i move so slowly, i tell the guy, I’m going to get there; it’ll take me a minute, but i’ll get there. Of course, he sees me somewhat shaky and asks if I’m okay. Anytime I’m asked that question, I say yes…no need to get into any long story. But then he says, looks like there’s something wrong, did u hurt ur leg? Crap! did he have to ask more questions? really? This is a place that I frequent – ALOT – so I felt the need to tell him the truth, “i have MS so sometimes i stiffen up when I walk”…poor guy. I think he got confused, mumbled under his breath “so sorry” and got the hell out of dodge.
It’s not that i want to make anyone uncomfortable or anything, but he asked me more questions – he should have just accepted my first answer and moved the hell on.
Last nite, I went to a friends’ house and ran into someone i know who hasn’t seen me in a while (we don’t keep in touch either). I went into the office yesterday so i did more walking than i should have so by last nite, i was in a state….the conversations went like this:
and he walked away…i heard later that he went to confirm with G and SD that i was telling the truth. He honestly didn’t believe me. Again, I don’t set out to make people feel uncomfortable or anything but sometimes they just don’t know how to react and sometimes the truth just isn’t necessary either.